Victim No More

Sometimes

when I need

a miracle,

I look into

my Son's

eyes, and realize

I've already

created one.

Oh my little man! You have grown, changed, and developed more then I could have ever imagined over the last few months.  You are truly my miracle and have overcome more then I could ever imagine.  Your emotional growth runs deep, your social growth spans far, and your developmental growth continues to jump high.

You are no longer a victim.  For the last four years I have described how child abuse has affected you.  How your past has been reflected in who you are and how your behaviors are indicators of all you have been through.  Recently though, you are no longer a victim and your past no longer defines who you are becoming. 

Recently you ran your first 5K to raise awareness for child abuse.  You were not the victim in this race but the picture of hope.  As you crossed the finish line I honestly had tears in my eyes.  During the 3.1 miles I was able to reflect upon all you have accomplished and how far you have come.  The day you came home you were still mastering walking up and down stairs and would just fall over when standing still.  You have now crossed the finish line on your own two feet accomplishing more then just completing a race. 

I have been watching you shed your baggage daily and grow into an ambitious, creative, and adventurous boy who carries himself with confidence.  You are allowing the world around you to see what an amazing person you are.  The spark in your eyes has changed... you are no longer seeking permission but instead truly happy with just being you.  

As I walk you into school every morning, teachers and staff members approach me to tell me how far you have come.  That they see how relaxed you are, the happiness in what you do, and how comfortable you are with everyone. You are enjoying true friendships and I am told that you "almost fall over laughing so hard" at recess.  I see a level of acceptance and trust I never expected.  I watch you accept being touched by your teachers, willing to feel and understand that they care for you, and allowing them to see all the potential that you hold inside.  

This is such a pivotal point for you in your development and being able to continue to grow and expand.  I have been your all... from your shoulder to cry on, your face to scream in, your punching bag to beat on, your eyes and your ears when you couldn't use your own, your voice in times of need, and your biggest cheerleader since the moment you came into my life.  This will never change.  What has changed is that you are allowing others to be there for you when I cannot.  You are spreading your wings and trusting that others can catch you when you fall and most importantly cheer you on as continue to navigate the path less often traveled.

I love you more then words can describe

Keep On Truckin'

Love 

Mom