Five years ago today we started this adventure together. We have cried together, laughed together, screamed at each other together, giggled to the point of tears together, cried some more together, and grown together. You have sewn your heart within my heart, filled holes I didn't know I had, and you have taught me the true meaning of hard work and determination. Five years ago today I brought you home, a scared, fragile, and infantile little boy and we started to create our own path together full of many bumps, ditches, and rocks. Today I look at a confident, strong, and empowered little man who is ready to continue to pave his path.
Your independence and strength continue to grow daily. You are turning over new rocks, spreading your wings, and now actually starting to take flight. This past year I have seen you walk into school with confidence, tackle new academic goals, allow yourself to trust others, and mature emotionally. You are beginning to self-regulate, make your needs known, and simple believe that you have the world to fall back on.
It has been an amazing experience this last year to see you grow from the child who was afraid of the open hand hurting him to now turning to that open hand for help. To see you grow from the child who was afraid to voice his opinion due to the unknown consequence to now telling the world around all your heart desires. To see you grow from the child who was afraid of the world around him to now seeing a child take on the challenges of the world knowing he may not always succeed. To see you grow from the child who was afraid to show his pain no matter how hard he fell to now seeing a child shed a tear over a scrape, showing your emotions when your feelings are hurt, and making sure those around you know when you have a "boo-boo". To see you grow from a child who relied upon helplessness and who missing the spark of motivation to a now seeing a child who is more spirited and passionate about life then anyone else I know.
You have torn down walls, defeated barriers, and exceeded expectations all within the five short years I have had the honor of calling you my son. Today I no longer worry about your future but instead I am excited for all the opportunities you will create for yourself and which path you will continue to take. Although your road has become much smoother it will never be without speedbumps and I hope that you know I will always be here for you as you run ahead of me and experience all that life as to offer. I hope that this next year continues to to offer you opportunties to build upon the foundation we have created and explore whatever your heart wishes. You deserve this time in your life and have so much to offer those around you.
Keep on truckin' baby because the future knows no limits and the only race is within yourself.
Happy Gotcha Day
Love You
Mom
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Let It Snow
I love snow. I could stare out the window for hours and watch it fall from the sky. Maybe it is that no two snowflakes are alike or the way it moves in the wind. It is unpredictable, changes in a moment, and carries an impact when it falls. Watching the snow provides me an opportunity for reflection and is one of the few moments I stop and take a breath.
You are no different. When there is a fresh coat of snow on the ground your face lights up. You scream with delight and your entire body and intonation of your language portrays that of excitement. You run over to the snow piles and want to feel it, taste it, and experience it. Every time it snows I swear your reaction is such that you have never seen it before, but really, you sense the excitement and joy in me and it is a moment that we can share.
You read people. You survived by reading people and knowing which move to make next. When it snows I am sure you feel me relax and take a moment to enjoy. You stop in your tracks, look up at me and smile, and then point at the snow and start to jabber. You ewe and awe over it and giggle as you run through it. I cherish seeing the light in your eyes in these moments and the simple pleasure you experience.
Just as snow is unpredictable, changes in a moment, and carries an impact, so do you. I am not sure you will ever realize the impact you have had on me or those around you. You have changed me for the better and in areas I didn't know I needed to grow. You are able to put a smile on the faces of those around you, make the world giggle with you, and lift the stress off the back of others with simply a smile and a hello. You are able to not only transform yourself to a situation but also the attitude of others. There are moments where you melt and lose your form just a snowflake does within seconds, but your puddles do not last long. It is an opportunity for you to regroup and take on new shape and a new perspective. You are voicing your opinion and working hard to be heard.
You are not like any other person but instead a unique individual who has formed his personality over the years. We have tried so many different therapies, activities, and programs to find where you fit into the world. Recently I have discovered though it is not about you fitting into the world but instead you creating your own space in the moment. Your passion for music has helped you develop a sense of yourself and an escape when needed. Your love for books has helped you express your interests without having to use words. Your interest in animals has developed a calming sense within you. Your desire to create friendships and follow in the steps of your peers has helped you develop your social/emotional skills and provided you a community that only you could form when you were ready to trust. Your determination in swimming and gymnastics has helped you grow and create a sense of self-awareness.
I have hopes and dreams for where you will be tomorrow but in reality, you have your own plans. To me, you are unpredictable, change in the moment, and impact all those around you, but to you, it all makes sense. You have a passion, you have an idea, and you have the determination that continues to push your through. You have thrived, accepted the challenge, and grown into an amazing young boy. At times I have wished you had a voice to tell me about those desires and allow me to share in your dreams but then I realized you already have. You have trusted me. You have accepted me. You have communicated to me who you are today and where you are in the moment. Tomorrow is never promised and today we will celebrate all that you have become.
Keep On Trucking
Love
Mom
You are no different. When there is a fresh coat of snow on the ground your face lights up. You scream with delight and your entire body and intonation of your language portrays that of excitement. You run over to the snow piles and want to feel it, taste it, and experience it. Every time it snows I swear your reaction is such that you have never seen it before, but really, you sense the excitement and joy in me and it is a moment that we can share.
You read people. You survived by reading people and knowing which move to make next. When it snows I am sure you feel me relax and take a moment to enjoy. You stop in your tracks, look up at me and smile, and then point at the snow and start to jabber. You ewe and awe over it and giggle as you run through it. I cherish seeing the light in your eyes in these moments and the simple pleasure you experience.
Just as snow is unpredictable, changes in a moment, and carries an impact, so do you. I am not sure you will ever realize the impact you have had on me or those around you. You have changed me for the better and in areas I didn't know I needed to grow. You are able to put a smile on the faces of those around you, make the world giggle with you, and lift the stress off the back of others with simply a smile and a hello. You are able to not only transform yourself to a situation but also the attitude of others. There are moments where you melt and lose your form just a snowflake does within seconds, but your puddles do not last long. It is an opportunity for you to regroup and take on new shape and a new perspective. You are voicing your opinion and working hard to be heard.
You are not like any other person but instead a unique individual who has formed his personality over the years. We have tried so many different therapies, activities, and programs to find where you fit into the world. Recently I have discovered though it is not about you fitting into the world but instead you creating your own space in the moment. Your passion for music has helped you develop a sense of yourself and an escape when needed. Your love for books has helped you express your interests without having to use words. Your interest in animals has developed a calming sense within you. Your desire to create friendships and follow in the steps of your peers has helped you develop your social/emotional skills and provided you a community that only you could form when you were ready to trust. Your determination in swimming and gymnastics has helped you grow and create a sense of self-awareness.
I have hopes and dreams for where you will be tomorrow but in reality, you have your own plans. To me, you are unpredictable, change in the moment, and impact all those around you, but to you, it all makes sense. You have a passion, you have an idea, and you have the determination that continues to push your through. You have thrived, accepted the challenge, and grown into an amazing young boy. At times I have wished you had a voice to tell me about those desires and allow me to share in your dreams but then I realized you already have. You have trusted me. You have accepted me. You have communicated to me who you are today and where you are in the moment. Tomorrow is never promised and today we will celebrate all that you have become.
Keep On Trucking
Love
Mom
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